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17 June 2009 @ 11:55 pm
.................. I checking it twice.

Nope it is not a Christmas list, but a list of things I need to do, finish, beg, steal or borrow in time for my birhtday party on Saturday. After a mild panic that I wouldn't get it all done, and offers of help from friends. I then wrote the lists and ticked things off, so I am on a roll and all will be done by Saturday. :)
Current Mood: relievedrelieved
08 March 2009 @ 11:49 pm
So I got tagged by </a></b></a>mudrat , and according to the rules:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.

B) Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Erm, I think everyone I know here has already been tagged.

1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up.
My phone
Washing drying on the airer, inculding my nasty work tops
An empty pint glass
A Bottle of contact lense solution
An oragarmy swan

2. What is the last movie you watched?
The Reader - This afternoon in fact. I liked it.

3. What are you wearing now?
Black jeans, a burnt orange top and I am wrapped up in a warm blanket as I am cold.

4. What's your occupation?
Revenue Manager for a conference centre

5. The best thing to happen to you as of late?
I have a week off work starting in 5 days time

6. Do you consider yourself a good friend?
I'd like to think so, ask m friends

7. What is one word you would use to describe yourself?

8. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Its not really an obsession but I am in to Heros at the moment. 

9. What was the last thing you ate today?
.Vegetable crisps, or as my friends who I was with like to call them Pot puri

10. What would your perfect day consist of doing?
A relaxing wake up, and time spend with friends, I am not too fussed what, just time together catching up, supporting each other, making each other laugh.

11. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Here, the BBC news website, online banking and a friendly place to chat

12. What was the last thing you bought?
A round in the pub including a bag of pot puri

13. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing apart from the heater ticking, but in the cd player is We started nothing by the Ting Tings

14. What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
Too much

15. What was the last CD you bought?
Only by the night by Kings of Leon

16. What is your favourite weather, and why?

17. What is the last book you read?
Quiet Ugly one morning by Christopher Brookmyre

18. What is the one single wish for life?
The be content, happy, to love and to be loved

19: What is your biggest regret in life?
I try not to live by regrets, like heilun_coo  I regret how some friendships ended

19. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
Nothing too poiniant just; "please, please could you concentrate and do your work properly"

20. What's one of your favourite movies?
Kill Bill nomally ranks up there as one of my favourites
06 December 2008 @ 06:45 pm

Your Rainbow

Your rainbow is shaded red.


What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate energetic people. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.
06 October 2008 @ 09:10 pm
What a turn around a day makes *sings slightly out of tune*

On friday I headed home for the evening and had a good catch up with candleshoe  and heilun_coo for the evening. I headed back quiet early to see a couple of cars. After the daft salesman didn't realise he had the keys for the cars I had arranged to see we were about to leave, when he ran over and said I have them! Twit. I test drove the car, my housemate who used to be a mechanic checked it out. Today I bought it, I collect it on Thursday. This evening surpirsing my insurance company re-instated my policy and gave me a refund. I guess less boy racers have ford ka's opposed to fiat punto's. I am not sure I understand the resaoning behind cancelling the policy and making me re-instate it, either way it is done and I don't have to try to find another policy. It is such a relief to have it all sorted.

My  computer is working much better, I didn't loose the files I thought I had. A fiend is going to get some more RAM so that it becomes even whizzer.

Current Mood: happyhappy
30 September 2008 @ 11:09 pm
Friday was quite a stressful day. The first conference I was looking after was in, I issued a very detailed function sheet that gave lots of information and lots of requirements. The only bit that was missing was the technical info as I hadn't dealt with that, apart from costings. But it should have all been in order as someone from conference services had been liasing with the client, he knew what they wanted. He was meant to be at work to meet them and set it all up. He had left me no details and wasn't at work. The reason he wasn't at work was so that he could take his brother in-law to the airport. His brother in-law is the operations manager therefore what he says goes, well in his head anyway!!! Intermingled with this I was having a battle with the insurance company to ensure that I got a hire car by the afternoon. Eventually they agreed and I got a car, they paid for a hire car to start that afternoon as the standard one couldn't be arranged quick enough due to their delay at the begnining of the week. That in itself was not without its excitments! In the taxi on the way over a motor bike had an accident in front of the car. We stopped and helped the man, called an ambulance the police etc. The hire car company stayed open to wait for me.

The weekend was lovely, I spent time with candleshoe  and my Mum. Oh I now have two hire cars, the extra one the insurance company arranged on Friday and the standard one I received on Monday! I did tell the insurance company on Monday they could arrange collection. They called today to say they are ready to settle they just need a few more bits of information from me tomorrow and I could have an offer by the end of the day. Only draw back is that I then have the give the hire car back within two days. I have got a few quotes today for hire cars which seam quiet reasonable for a week. I am also busy looking for cars. I really don't care what it is, as long as it has a small engine and goes. Busy busy busy.

candleshoe  and I get to see heilun_coo on Friday before she heads off on holiday. Our catch ups in the pub are the new evolved girsl night. Yay.

23 September 2008 @ 11:50 pm
Well Saturdays excitement, although that is really not the most appropriate word, made up for Fridays dullness. I will not complain about things being dull again, I will take a month of dull days over Saturday no hesitation or questions asked.

I crashed my car again. Yes again, I seam to have a good knack of doing this, on my dull days I will start wishing not to have this skill. Again my car is likely to be a write off, the second car is quiet badly damage, the third had minor damage.

My indecisiveness didn't help filling in the insurance form, I always think they are trick questions, not designed to find out what happened but what they don't have to pay out for. I am scared that I give the wrong answers, that I misinterpret the questions. I have submitted the form and there is nothing I can do about it now, but that doesn't stop me worrying and being paranoid. I don't fully remember what the police said to me, which doesn't help at all.

My emotional response is probably an over reaction, either way it is not helping my state of mind.

Current Mood: worriedworried
20 September 2008 @ 12:32 pm
Its been a confusing week full of ups and downs; Monday I was apprehensive, Tuesday was full of frustration and tears, Wednesday was full of laughter, Thursday was productive and Friday was dull. Monday at the doctors he suggested one last step to come of meds, so I am taking one everyother day for a month.

I am invoking the three day rule on deciding whether to move jobs. The three days rules has helped me make many big decisions in life. I am usually very indecisive about big things, and small things, ok everything. I have to shut the menu in a restaurant, firstly to let the waiter know I am ready to order, but mainly so I stop reading and don't change my mind. Sot the three day rule really helps. Basically I have to make the same decision for three days in a row. If I change my mind the three days starts again. It means by they time if finally make a decision I have thought it over and am committed to the outcome. I have extended it in the past to five days, but three is usually enough.

I was going to make a pro's and con's list, but I am not sure which way is pro's or con's, so its more a should I stay? or should I go? list.

Should I stay...
I know my job it is easy, I can do it tired, hungover, I can go in late and my boss does have a clue how to tell me off for it. I am settling in this town. If I move back certainly initialy will be living with my Mum not sure if I want to be nearly 30 and living at home again.

Should I go....
I am bored, the work doesn't excite me at all, it doesn't challenge me. I feel like I get no recognition for the work I do. There is too much crap in the way of real work. I am settled in this town.I miss my home town. I'd quiet like a payrise who wouldn't, which I am not going to get staying where I am.
12 September 2008 @ 12:52 am
Dull dull dull, thats what my past few weeks at work have been. I have been excited by helping candleshoe find a venue for her wedding.

I am going to the doctors on Monday to come off my medication. I am not100% convinced I am ready, but I think I am as ready as I will ever be. I hope it is more a phycological barrier than a medical need that makes me dubious. I have dropped my accupuncture appointments down to once a month, but I think I will plan one for two weeks time, as a safety net.

Oh yeah, I came out to a friend this evening, in a very subtle way, not sure if she even noticed. Maybe she will never say anything, maybe she will. She is apart of a group of friends I have made through church, I can never tell quiet how a bunch of Christians will respond. I am really starting to feel settled in this town, considering a new job without moving. But as my core group of friends here I need to be sure I don't get a negative reaction, that I can truely  be myself. Although they know me, they don't know that I am gay. I don't actively hide it, but I guess it doesn't even enter their heads.

The two possibly don't go together too well, I had not told them I had been depressed, my struggles and medication. This evening I told them that too. In the hope that the next few weeks will not be horendous, but be a new begining, a stable time, a happier time, a settled time.
Current Mood: nervousnervous
26 June 2008 @ 10:49 pm
1. Do you believe anyone truly likes their job? If so, why?

Yes, there have been times when I really do enjoy my job. I don't think that there arent enough people who truly enjoy their job

2. Do you 1) live to work or 2) work to live 3) not see a difference?

Live to work, yup I'm a workaholic

3. How many hours do you work a week?

About 55

4. What was your safety item (i.e. blankie) from when you were little?

er, no but I do remember spending hours looking for a small green teddie called greenie because I didn't want to go on holiday without it.

5. Have you ever used food during sex?


Bonus (as in optional):What is your guilty food pleasure?

Chocolate, but there is nothing guilty about it
23 June 2008 @ 07:29 pm
Work continues to go well. I'm still slightly suspicious. As S. pointed out, I am quiet rightly suspicious. I have adjusted to this med change surprisingly well. The week I knew would be crap, was, but after that it has been fine. I feel like I am missing my spark. I thought it was just me but candleshoe has noticed too. I guess it is there, hidden altittle. Its almost time to decide if I want to come of meds all together, while the going is good, or to give it another couple of months. I am tempted both ways, I need a list, I shall write a list. 
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Sunday nights and Monday mornings - counting Crows