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17 June 2009 @ 11:55 pm
I made a list.................  
.................. I checking it twice.

Nope it is not a Christmas list, but a list of things I need to do, finish, beg, steal or borrow in time for my birhtday party on Saturday. After a mild panic that I wouldn't get it all done, and offers of help from friends. I then wrote the lists and ticked things off, so I am on a roll and all will be done by Saturday. :)
 
 
Current Mood: relieved
 
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08 March 2009 @ 11:49 pm
I got tagged...  
Meme
So I got tagged by </a></b></a>[info]mudrat , and according to the rules:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question that they dislike with a new, original question.

B) Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Erm, I think everyone I know here has already been tagged.


1. Make a list of 5 things you can see without getting up.
My phone
Washing drying on the airer, inculding my nasty work tops
An empty pint glass
A Bottle of contact lense solution
An oragarmy swan

2. What is the last movie you watched?
The Reader - This afternoon in fact. I liked it.

3. What are you wearing now?
Black jeans, a burnt orange top and I am wrapped up in a warm blanket as I am cold.

4. What's your occupation?
Revenue Manager for a conference centre

5. The best thing to happen to you as of late?
I have a week off work starting in 5 days time

6. Do you consider yourself a good friend?
I'd like to think so, ask m friends

7. What is one word you would use to describe yourself?
honest

8. What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Its not really an obsession but I am in to Heros at the moment. 

9. What was the last thing you ate today?
.Vegetable crisps, or as my friends who I was with like to call them Pot puri

10. What would your perfect day consist of doing?
A relaxing wake up, and time spend with friends, I am not too fussed what, just time together catching up, supporting each other, making each other laugh.

11. What websites do you always visit when you go online?
Here, the BBC news website, online banking and a friendly place to chat

12. What was the last thing you bought?
A round in the pub including a bag of pot puri

13. What are you listening to right now?
Nothing apart from the heater ticking, but in the cd player is We started nothing by the Ting Tings

14. What do you think about before you go to bed at night?
Too much

15. What was the last CD you bought?
Only by the night by Kings of Leon

16. What is your favourite weather, and why?
Sunny

17. What is the last book you read?
Quiet Ugly one morning by Christopher Brookmyre

18. What is the one single wish for life?
The be content, happy, to love and to be loved

19: What is your biggest regret in life?
I try not to live by regrets, like [info]heilun_coo  I regret how some friendships ended

19. What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
Nothing too poiniant just; "please, please could you concentrate and do your work properly"

20. What's one of your favourite movies?
Kill Bill nomally ranks up there as one of my favourites
 
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06 December 2008 @ 06:45 pm
Rainbows  

Your Rainbow

Your rainbow is shaded red.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate energetic people. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.
 
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06 October 2008 @ 09:10 pm
What a difference a day makes  
What a turn around a day makes *sings slightly out of tune*

On friday I headed home for the evening and had a good catch up with [info]candleshoe  and [info]heilun_coo for the evening. I headed back quiet early to see a couple of cars. After the daft salesman didn't realise he had the keys for the cars I had arranged to see we were about to leave, when he ran over and said I have them! Twit. I test drove the car, my housemate who used to be a mechanic checked it out. Today I bought it, I collect it on Thursday. This evening surpirsing my insurance company re-instated my policy and gave me a refund. I guess less boy racers have ford ka's opposed to fiat punto's. I am not sure I understand the resaoning behind cancelling the policy and making me re-instate it, either way it is done and I don't have to try to find another policy. It is such a relief to have it all sorted.

My  computer is working much better, I didn't loose the files I thought I had. A fiend is going to get some more RAM so that it becomes even whizzer.




 
 
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30 September 2008 @ 11:09 pm
Is it the weekend yet?  
Friday was quite a stressful day. The first conference I was looking after was in, I issued a very detailed function sheet that gave lots of information and lots of requirements. The only bit that was missing was the technical info as I hadn't dealt with that, apart from costings. But it should have all been in order as someone from conference services had been liasing with the client, he knew what they wanted. He was meant to be at work to meet them and set it all up. He had left me no details and wasn't at work. The reason he wasn't at work was so that he could take his brother in-law to the airport. His brother in-law is the operations manager therefore what he says goes, well in his head anyway!!! Intermingled with this I was having a battle with the insurance company to ensure that I got a hire car by the afternoon. Eventually they agreed and I got a car, they paid for a hire car to start that afternoon as the standard one couldn't be arranged quick enough due to their delay at the begnining of the week. That in itself was not without its excitments! In the taxi on the way over a motor bike had an accident in front of the car. We stopped and helped the man, called an ambulance the police etc. The hire car company stayed open to wait for me.

The weekend was lovely, I spent time with [info]candleshoe  and my Mum. Oh I now have two hire cars, the extra one the insurance company arranged on Friday and the standard one I received on Monday! I did tell the insurance company on Monday they could arrange collection. They called today to say they are ready to settle they just need a few more bits of information from me tomorrow and I could have an offer by the end of the day. Only draw back is that I then have the give the hire car back within two days. I have got a few quotes today for hire cars which seam quiet reasonable for a week. I am also busy looking for cars. I really don't care what it is, as long as it has a small engine and goes. Busy busy busy.

[info]candleshoe  and I get to see [info]heilun_coo on Friday before she heads off on holiday. Our catch ups in the pub are the new evolved girsl night. Yay.

 
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23 September 2008 @ 11:50 pm
The downs continue  
Well Saturdays excitement, although that is really not the most appropriate word, made up for Fridays dullness. I will not complain about things being dull again, I will take a month of dull days over Saturday no hesitation or questions asked.

I crashed my car again. Yes again, I seam to have a good knack of doing this, on my dull days I will start wishing not to have this skill. Again my car is likely to be a write off, the second car is quiet badly damage, the third had minor damage.

My indecisiveness didn't help filling in the insurance form, I always think they are trick questions, not designed to find out what happened but what they don't have to pay out for. I am scared that I give the wrong answers, that I misinterpret the questions. I have submitted the form and there is nothing I can do about it now, but that doesn't stop me worrying and being paranoid. I don't fully remember what the police said to me, which doesn't help at all.

My emotional response is probably an over reaction, either way it is not helping my state of mind.

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20 September 2008 @ 12:32 pm
(no subject)  
Its been a confusing week full of ups and downs; Monday I was apprehensive, Tuesday was full of frustration and tears, Wednesday was full of laughter, Thursday was productive and Friday was dull. Monday at the doctors he suggested one last step to come of meds, so I am taking one everyother day for a month.

I am invoking the three day rule on deciding whether to move jobs. The three days rules has helped me make many big decisions in life. I am usually very indecisive about big things, and small things, ok everything. I have to shut the menu in a restaurant, firstly to let the waiter know I am ready to order, but mainly so I stop reading and don't change my mind. Sot the three day rule really helps. Basically I have to make the same decision for three days in a row. If I change my mind the three days starts again. It means by they time if finally make a decision I have thought it over and am committed to the outcome. I have extended it in the past to five days, but three is usually enough.

I was going to make a pro's and con's list, but I am not sure which way is pro's or con's, so its more a should I stay? or should I go? list.

Should I stay...
I know my job it is easy, I can do it tired, hungover, I can go in late and my boss does have a clue how to tell me off for it. I am settling in this town. If I move back certainly initialy will be living with my Mum not sure if I want to be nearly 30 and living at home again.

Should I go....
I am bored, the work doesn't excite me at all, it doesn't challenge me. I feel like I get no recognition for the work I do. There is too much crap in the way of real work. I am settled in this town.I miss my home town. I'd quiet like a payrise who wouldn't, which I am not going to get staying where I am.
 
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12 September 2008 @ 12:52 am
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Dull dull dull, thats what my past few weeks at work have been. I have been excited by helping candleshoe find a venue for her wedding.

I am going to the doctors on Monday to come off my medication. I am not100% convinced I am ready, but I think I am as ready as I will ever be. I hope it is more a phycological barrier than a medical need that makes me dubious. I have dropped my accupuncture appointments down to once a month, but I think I will plan one for two weeks time, as a safety net.

Oh yeah, I came out to a friend this evening, in a very subtle way, not sure if she even noticed. Maybe she will never say anything, maybe she will. She is apart of a group of friends I have made through church, I can never tell quiet how a bunch of Christians will respond. I am really starting to feel settled in this town, considering a new job without moving. But as my core group of friends here I need to be sure I don't get a negative reaction, that I can truely  be myself. Although they know me, they don't know that I am gay. I don't actively hide it, but I guess it doesn't even enter their heads.

The two possibly don't go together too well, I had not told them I had been depressed, my struggles and medication. This evening I told them that too. In the hope that the next few weeks will not be horendous, but be a new begining, a stable time, a happier time, a settled time.
 
 
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26 June 2008 @ 10:49 pm
TMI Tuesday, oh make that Thursday!  
1. Do you believe anyone truly likes their job? If so, why?

Yes, there have been times when I really do enjoy my job. I don't think that there arent enough people who truly enjoy their job

2. Do you 1) live to work or 2) work to live 3) not see a difference?

Live to work, yup I'm a workaholic

3. How many hours do you work a week?

About 55

4. What was your safety item (i.e. blankie) from when you were little?

er, no but I do remember spending hours looking for a small green teddie called greenie because I didn't want to go on holiday without it.

5. Have you ever used food during sex?

No

Bonus (as in optional):What is your guilty food pleasure?

Chocolate, but there is nothing guilty about it
 
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23 June 2008 @ 07:29 pm
Pinky and perky  
Work continues to go well. I'm still slightly suspicious. As S. pointed out, I am quiet rightly suspicious. I have adjusted to this med change surprisingly well. The week I knew would be crap, was, but after that it has been fine. I feel like I am missing my spark. I thought it was just me but [info]candleshoe has noticed too. I guess it is there, hidden altittle. Its almost time to decide if I want to come of meds all together, while the going is good, or to give it another couple of months. I am tempted both ways, I need a list, I shall write a list. 
 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Sunday nights and Monday mornings - counting Crows
 
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20 June 2008 @ 12:12 am
More haste, less speed  
My days are being quiet productive at work at the moment. This week is a big catch up week, reception are keeping to their side of the bargain. So I am still working longer days, but next week it will easy off.

I have booked my "how not to speed course", now I'm thinking the time I booked and how it is not the best time for me. I booked it as it was the only weekend slot between now and the end of September, which is when I have to have done it by. I had to re-arrange weekend plans to do it. I am now thinking that I should have picked an evening session. I could have left work at 3.30pm and got there in time. However there is actually no point having these thoughts as I can't change the time, unless I want to pay for the course again. Why didn't I think these things before I booked?
 
 
Current Mood: irritated
 
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16 June 2008 @ 12:22 am
3 of a kind: Mark 2  
Mark two or more to the point times two

To day I;

  • Spilt a glass of water by the power of my foot in my sleep
  • Lost a contact lens
  • Dropped my laptop and nearly killed it
  • Left an hour and a half late, sure to dropped laptop
  • Got delayed for an hour on the motorway
  • Spilt half a can of diet coke over me and the inside of the car.
I am going to try out a new work schedule, I haven't told anyone at work just in case I don't manage it. I will ty to work 8.30am - 6pm. So that even if I am late out, I still have an evening left. Also it might help me get a better sleep pattern, otherwise I finish work at 7.30-8, get home, eat unwind and it is about 10pm. Then I start doing things I need and it is 1m before bed. So I am then tired the next day. I dare say it is a vicious circle I need to break, so fingers crossed.
 
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09 May 2008 @ 10:01 pm
3 of a kind  
My day was going quiet well, I had my overtime approved, I got quiet alot of work done. Then I met the GM for my 5 minutes. She can not or will not rise my salary any more. I ran a duck over on my way home and got flashed by a speed camera. So six months in this job is all I will be doing, six months looking for a new job.

Bring on the weekend.
 
 
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08 May 2008 @ 09:09 pm
5 minutes  
5 minutes that is all I ask. My wish was granted, well kind of. The GM has agreed to see me tomorrow for 5 minutes. She goes on holiday for two weeks on Saturday. I know that I won't get the answer I want but it will raise my concerns and make it clear I won't do all that work for that small amount of money. Na ah. 
 
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07 May 2008 @ 12:11 am
Is it home time yet?  
That was the thought that was going through my head for most of the day today, that and what would happen if I just walked out. I can't do two peoples jobs by myself for much longer. I am tempted to make a few fuck ups so you notice, but you wont and it will still be my fault. Although, I couldn't have planned today's disorganisation if I had tried, twitface did that all by herself. She wont ask me for help, so I what can I do. Guess what, I still get part of the blame as I am part of the process that as a whole went wrong, even though my bit didn't.

I have given up on my accupuncturist, he fell off the planet for a while and is now moving practices. I can't wait any longer, I need some treatments, I need the calm that it brings me, the perspective and the energy. I sent an email off to someone more local this evenings, who does treatments in the evenings, so fingers crossed she is nice and we get along. I have a doctors appointment next Monday. I am due to drop my medication by a level, having delayed it two months ago. Last week I was feeling very positive about it. Now I am not. But I need to do it, it is time, I can do it, I atleast have to try.

My sleep although was improving, I was getting the right amount, in more regular intervals, at regular times, has started to get worse again. I know it is because I am stressing about work.
 
 
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02 May 2008 @ 11:10 pm
(no subject)  
I'm fucking fuming [image] you think I am going to do that much more work for that much money, you have to be fucking kidding. Plus have you not got the balls to to tell me but think you can do it via someone else and think I will just go "oh that a nice payrise" fuck that. Grow up and pay me a decent wage.

Do you want to throw something at her? I do.
 
 
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29 April 2008 @ 09:04 pm
Hotels and more.......  
Yesterday we got our C1 licence, that means that we are a fully fledged hotel now, not just a conference centre. This greatly expands where our business can come from, primarily my bookings.  By Friday we will be loaded onto several websites for bookings. It is all very exciting. My work load is going to double in the next few days. The has been some progress with an assistant for me, we have narrowed it down to one person, so are just negotiating a start date.

What is making it more pressing is that I am on holiday in less than 3 weeks. Someone needs to be able to cover my work. There has been little progress with my job and promotion, but this certainly should push it along. I will ask the GM again tomorrow.
 
 
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09 April 2008 @ 08:10 pm
Magic Number  
50 is the magic number this month, or more the point £50. I left £50 at the cash point, I had to spend £50 on a "free" windscreen. Luckly extra shifts at work are also £50 a pop so I will be doing a few of those this month.

Job update, I managed to speak to my GM before I went on holiday, which in itself is a miricale, she said "ops I thought you were a reservations manger" for various business reasons she wants to wait a "few weeks" before putting my promotion through. I agree with most of the reason, and would rather wait afew weeks and it be approved. So we'll see, I'll pester her at the end of the month.
 
 
Current Mood: dorky
 
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23 March 2008 @ 11:44 pm
Doors  

The month has got better as it has gone along. A friend said to me that some doors do not open until you are ready for others to shut. I had decided that I would leave work, maybe move home, maybe not, I would live where the job was right. I was ready for that door to shut, to move on. Now that door is open again, but it is opened to a new thing.

The previously mentioned manager is not coming back *phew * Things have taken a different turn at work, my boss is leaving and they are planning a re-structure, which includes development for me, but I have only had some vague conversations with the GM. It sounds good but I need to tie her down to some specifics, I don’t want to be pushed into conference management. I am happy to learn about it, but it is not my specialism and I don’t want it to be. Until I have some answers I don’t want to decide that is what I will go for. I was very definite that I wanted to leave, but this sound like it will be a good opportunity to improve my revenue management in a setting and product I know. Which I the long term will set me in good stead to move on in the future.

As agreed I have been back to my GP, we previously discussed dropping my dose in the spring. I didn’t feel ready so I will go back in 8 weeks. He said that I probably was ready. I said that there is a difference between being ready and knowing you are ready. When I dropped initially in September I felt ready, things were going well and it felt like a good step. The beginning of this year wasn’t too great, I struggled to cope to get through. Dropping didn’t feel like an option. I now have two months to get ready, I feel I am doing that already.

I am settled here, I think I want to stay. I have spoken to some friends at church about joining their home group. My housemates say they want to me to stay. So the month started with closed doors and has finished with open doors.

 
 
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05 March 2008 @ 12:11 am
The quickest way to make me leave  
The quickest way to make me leave is to bring back that woman. She drove me made when she was my equal, evening more when I worked in the same office. She could do the job she was doing then, why oh why do you think she could do the next level up. If you think I am sticking around to find out you have another thing coming.

I am going to work at another site tomorrow. To spend the day with their reservation manager, to see how they divide their work between reception and reservations. It should help my case when I propose what work I want to hand back to reception. So fingers crossed tomorrow will be a productive day.
 
 
Current Mood: giddy
 
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